Happy New Year. Hello 2010.


December 31, 2010: Today is the last day of this year. My journey is just beginning I know, but somehow a new year brings on thoughts of new beginnings. I’m going to try to make the most of everything. If I’ve learned anything in the last month it is this: we take too many things for granted. I am working on trying to appreciate everything. Life is short. This sounds cliché, but it is the truth. Young people get cancer and young people die. This is unfair, but it is the reality. I never thought I’d be 21 years old and have a cancer diagnosis. Never. Here I am though.


I have been trying to stay positive. This is possibly because I don’t know how else to be. Eternally optimistic some might call it. Some might think I"m crazy, and some have actually said that they're waiting for me to "have a complete break down". I don't think this is going to happen to be honest :) and I'm happy about that. 

I am spending time in La Crosse, WI with my friends because it helps keep my spirits up.  This requires some work on my parent’s part since they have to drive me down here and also come pick me up after my stay. Thank you, thank you, thank you. I have the best parents in the world (I know, I’m biased, but who cares). 


And to celebrate New Year’s Eve my friends and I had a relaxing night. My dear friend Rachel, is back in Wisconsin for a week or so from Spain.  We went to Applebees for dinner tonight and then came back to chat and knit. Yes, I did say knit. I have taken up knitting since I’ve been sick. This gives me something productive to do and helps pass the time at my chemotherapy sessions.  Knitting isn’t just for old people!

My friends truly are the best. No big party on New Year’s Eve, no drinking alcohol and no staying up until midnight. They gave up their night to spend time with me. It’s about 10:30pm and I am exhausted. Happy New Year!

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